You are a Christian, right? Been raised a Christian by your Christian parents and family. Went to Church every Sunday, read your Bible, and listened carefully during meetings. You believed all that you were taught. But somewhere along the way, questions would pop up. Why doesn't the Church celebrate the Solstices and Equinoxes? Why don't the teachings line up with historical accounts? Why was Jesus able to speak as he was dying, when crucifixion causes fluid to fill the lungs? Why was there a God but no Goddess? You noticed the glitches in the belief system, but you plastered over your questions and the inconsistencies so many times, until one day, you just couldn't do it any more. Something was off. You began to look for answers. Your church leaders chastised you for questioning things. Your family became angry with you for not going along with the teachings. What started as a small tear in the fabric of the illusion became a huge rift and you decided to go your own way. Sound familiar?

That is how it started with me. Born and raised in a Christian denomination, I had a strong belief in Jesus as my Savior and the truth of the Bible, that my church was the only church with the truth. I attended church faithfully every Sunday and participated in all the events the church scheduled. I was known as a “walking Bible” in high school. I read the Bible four times, cover to cover. I memorized many important scriptures. I married in the church to a man I dearly love. We studied and prayed together regularly.

But we both were spiritually gifted and we both noticed little glitches that were dismissed by other members of our congregation. We had spiritual experiences that others did not. We studied material that was “taboo” to study, because we felt drawn to them. My husband started studying Native American Spirituality and it resonated with me, called to me, as if with an ancient voice of remembrance. Here was the connection to the Earth and her energies that I had been sensing but was not in my christian world. At that time, we were both still attending church, but the rift between beliefs became larger and larger until we stopped attending church. We had found freedom. We had found connection. We had found truths that were denied to us as christians.

When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. When you have gone as far as you can with what is available to you, you have every right to expect the windows of heaven to open and a mentor to come to you. My husband and I began receiving communications from an Ancient Disincarnate Being, whom we call Mr. M. He became our spiritual mentor and guide. As my husband is a pure channel, our conversations were detailed and deep. He taught us spiritual concepts and guided us on our quest.

We went on to explore many other belief systems. We were now outside Plato's Cave, and we could see the cause of the dancing shadows on the wall. It was all illusion. I stopped believing in Jesus for a long time and could no longer pray to the christian God. What was I going to pray to? It was all false.

Interestingly, our spiritual studies led us full circle back to christianity, but not the christianity that we had come from. It led us to the teachings of Jesus and Mary Magdalene, as found in the gnostic scriptures. Their teachings resonated with me on a very deep level. I have always had a personal relationship with the Divine and have felt Divine guidance throughout my life. As I began to study gnosticism, I learned about the Ascension of the Soul in the Gospel of Mary. I really heard Jesus when he said that “The Kingdom of God is within you” for the first time and understood what he was talking about. I began to connect with my heart, to meditate, to read books written by theological scholars who helped me to understand things that had been obscure to me. My husband and I continue to study together and work together with Mr. M, as well as several other disincarnate mentors. Our understanding of ancient truths continued to expand. I started to really feel a spiritual connection again, but this time it was to the Goddess, the Divine Feminine, the Great Mother. And all of these things led me to the Ancient Sophianic Wisdom Traditions that have existed as long as mankind has existed. The Goddess has never left her children to wander alone in the darkness. She rises again and again to guide us back to her. 

Several years ago, we were contacted by the Divine Feminine, Sophia herself, and my husband was commissioned to create the Sovereign Order of the Mystic Knights of St. Mary Magdalene and Temple Sophia Unity Fellowship. Later, I was led to create Temple Sophia Circle of the Magdalene, a women-only group specifically focused on the Ancient Sophianic Wisdom Traditions and the Sacred Teachings of the Divine Feminine. It is about women in mutual support and healing, to share our thoughts and feelings as we walk our individual spiritual paths, and to learn about the Divine Feminine and the Sophianic Wisdom Traditions that are as old as mankind, as well as the forces and energies of Nature that influence our lives, our bodies, and this beautiful planet that we live on. This is my path, my journey, and I hope to share it with each of you.

November 8, 2025